" I'm afraid of losing you. the hardest thing about losing you is that it did not just happen at once. I lose you every single day that we dont speak. when I wake up in the morning reach for my phone and hope to see a message that is not there, when I go to sleep at night after I realise that the only person I want to moan to about how crap my day was , is not there. And I lose you in all of the moments in between, in all the hours of silence that go by where I do nothing but thinking of you, go to call you, and then I dont. I lose you when I watch certain movies, listen to certain songs, and go to certain restaurants that are all tainted with certain parts of you and how you make me feel. And I used to think I could only miss you when I was alone, but thats not true. I miss you when Im around everyone else, too. Because they are not you. But you are always there,..somewhere. I cant not think about you. It's only when Im asleep that i get a break from it. From thinking and wanting and missing. But, then i wake up the following day, roll over , check my phone , see that you did not text and i just know I'm going to feel it all over again. "
